Wednesday, 10 July 2024

The Paper Boat

  


    

    The paper boat set sail. Carrying love letters with crazy wishful thinking. The dream of someone coming to revive the love that had been extinguished. And so he arrived in the Nusantara, after a long journey around the world, on an island where as far as the eye could see was a stretch of ocean with a blue sky. 

        That afternoon he walked along the deserted shoreline with the wind waving shyly. In the distance he saw the man he had been waiting for coming. How happy he was and his soul came alive. his dreams were coming to life. 

The paper set sail, swerving along the ferocious waves that broke on the land. Reminding him life magic. They both sat and watched the sun sink slowly. It was as if time was slowing down and he wanted it to be slower this time. Then when night fell they would make love passionately. Burning with happiness.

        The paper boat set sail, amongst the billions of humans on his journey he finally found his lover who was nothing but a mirror of himself wounded . If he saw the man sobbing, he also saw himself on the man. Now nothing could stand in the way of his love for him. 

The days turned out to pass unlike the coconut tree that stood rigidly motionless. It was then that they sat together on the balcony terrace. He didn't know how to say goodbye and the man just silently lit his cigarette and suddenly burst into tears. 

In the morning when he passed, the man was supposed to come. But the man did not arrive. His heart dimmed. Then he believe there is always suffering in every love. 

But he never give up on love. One year later, he returned to the same hotel in the same room. He sat on the balcony terrace and hoped he would see the man and send him a message. But there was no more magic after the wound. 

The paper boat set sail, this time the paper boat was just boat paper made. The water slowly seeped in and sucked the boat into the deep ocean. As deep as the broke heart sink soul. 


Monday, 8 July 2024

Teman dan Kekasih

Ini bukan puisi cinta penuh buai-buai kasih sayang yang lama-lama membuatmu mual karena kehidupanmu ternyata tak seindah yang yang kamu harapkan. 

Ini juga bukan esai yang berbual tentang kebijakan-kebijakan cinta yang membuat kupingmu bebal karena ternyata kamu terluka berkali-kali dan tak menemukan pelajaran sama sekali.

Ini hanyalah sebuah kegundahan karena kehidupan telah mempertemukan kita sebagai orang asing, lalu mendekatkan kita sebagai teman, dan menjauhkan kita sebagai kekasih. 

Kepadamu aku bertanya, apakah kita ini teman atau kekasih?

Ataukah kita dan dan bukan atau?

Nyanyikan aku lagu-lagu cinta yang memperdaya hati yang terombang-ambing, dan biarkan aku tertipu, tersipu, dan tersapu.